Stopping but not giving up.

I am coming to the realization that I need to stop trying to run right now. This hurts to type. I am on the verge of tears. I just don’t think I can take the mental anguish over trying and not being able to keep up with my #c25k training.

I’m not giving up forever, just going to take it off the ol’ “do asap” goal list for now. It’s back on the “do this year” goal list. I *hate* that I am stopping but I know it is what I have to do for righty.

I’m afraid that if I keep pushing the running, I will screw things up for the half marathon in July. So now I will focus on logging bigger distances in walking, and getting my walking pace below 15min miles.

I got the Team Challenge training plan which starts up at the end of March. I’ve been looking at the walking plan and the run/walk plan and I just don’t see myself being at the point to do the run/walk plan in 4 weeks. I want to keep pushing myself, but I think I need to start being realistic. I am raising money for a cause dear to my heart. No one will judge me if I walk instead of run (and if they do, I’ll kick them in the baby maker). I need to keep trying to stay positive. My plan from the start was to walk.

I know I’m not a 140lb girl. My knees take a huge beating from my 263 lb frame when I run or do high-impact activities. Time to slow it down and work hard at losing bulk to make running easier in the future.

Time to rework my training plan for March.

PS: I am still doing the Brown Deer 5k in April. I will walk it.

Checking up, slowing down and a wardrobe malfunction

On Friday, I had a checkup with Dr. H. regarding my myriad of health issues. First, I talked with Nurse Debbie. I was bursting to tell her I lost almost 11 pounds. She was SOOO excited for me! She asked what I was doing and I said I was exercising and eating less. I made sure to point out that I’m not cutting anything completely from my diet, just eating smaller amounts of food. She agreed this is probably the best way for me to lose weight.

Pulse was good. Blood pressure was… (insert fanfare) 136/86. Still not great, but down from 149/92 in December! SCORE.

I also told Debbie about my plan to do a 5k in April and a half-marathon in July. I even told her about my breakthrough C25k moment last week. I also told her about something that happened during that run/walk that I didn’t share with y’all. I had a wardrobe malfunction. I was about 12 min into the intervals on the treadmill when I felt a li’l drafty. Figured it must be because I was running oh-so-fast. Then I did a “pants check.” Yep. Sure enough, my pants fell below my bootay. Luckily, I was wearing a long shirt and *hopefully* no one saw too much of my underwear. I quickly pulled my pants up. I hope I didn’t scar anyone for life. Nurse Debbie started laughing so hard her eyes began to water. She said she felt bad about laughing but it was too funny. I assured her I didn’t mind if she laughed… I’ve been laughing about it all week.

So then Dr. H. came in and we had a really good talk (20+ min) about everything. I told her about the 5k, half-marathon and this blog. She was so happy I’ve lost weight. “I’m impressed,” she said when she realized I had lost almost 11 pounds in just 6 weeks. Dr. H. laughed about the wardrobe malfunction and said she definitely thought I could walk a half marathon in July. YES!

Dr. H. was very happy to see my blood pressure had dropped and attributed that to my exercising. She said that hopefully in a few months, it will be back down to normal! I’m so happy I don’t have to go on meds!

I went to the lab to have some blood drawn to check my Thyroid levels and my TSH was down to 5.24 (from 10.2 in December). She upped my meds slightly and hopefully the increase will help regulate my levels enough that I don’t need to up them anymore. I started the higher dose Saturday and haven’t noticed a difference just yet. Soon, I hope! My iron counts were good, so I don’t have to increase that.

The results from the sleep apnea link test I took earlier this month came in last week. I wasn’t in the “normal” range, but I wasn’t in the “grossly abnormal” stage either. Basically, that means I have to do a sleep study at the hospital. THAT should be a blast. I hardly slept with the apnea link, I can’t imagine how I’ll sleep with even more stuff hooked up to me and a video camera watching me sleep. I just might make an obscene gesture or two, to make sure they’re paying attention.

I also talked with Dr. H. about my knee pain, telling her I think it’s just weak from not working out and maybe I aggravated some scar tissue from the surgery I had when I was 18. She said if the pain wasn’t stabbing/short, I was probably right. So I’m gonna work on strengthening my calves/quads/hamstrings plus hip abductors/adductors and hope that helps righty out. Acupuncture is actually helping quite a bit, so hopefully the combination of the above with the new brace I ordered I will be able to continue C25k training next week. I’ve decided that I’m taking this week off, and focusing on the strength training and will just do walking and/or biking for cardio.

Reminder:  I’m selling coffee to raise money for Crohn’s and Colitis research!

Weigh In Wednesday: Good News and Bad News

First, the good news:

  • I lost 0.6 pounds this week! Considering what I ate this week and that I didn’t work out very much, I am SOOOO happy to have lost and not gained. I would have been happy to stay the same! Current weight: 265 with a total of 9.2 pounds lost in 5 weeks!
  • I signed up to do a half-marathon. Today I decided I want to run as much of it as possible. And no, I am not currently a runner, nor have I EVER been a runner. The most I’ve run since I was 12 was the mile they required us to run in high school gym class for the “fitness” test. And I walked most of that.
  • I have created a tentative training schedule for the next 23 weeks. the first 9 are the Couch to 5k program… followed by a half marathon walking training schedule for the following 14 weeks. Once I begin training with Team Challenge, I am going to adjust the last 16 weeks of this schedule accordingly… especially since I’m going to run as much of it as possible.
  • When you lose weight (and inches), your clothes get big and fall off.

The bad news:

  • When you lose weight (and inches), your clothes get big and fall off.

I’ve lost 0.6 pounds in the last week and lost 9.2 pounds in 5 weeks. Want previous stats? Click here.

I’m losing it for a good cause

When I first began this journey, I decided that my first big challenge would be running a 5k in 2010. I decided my first race would be the Storm the Bastille in July here in Milwaukee. Then, my friend Anne told me about her new job, coaching for Team Challenge. Color me intrigued.

Three weeks into my journey to get healthy, I pushed myself to walk for 2 hours and 5.6 miles on a treadmill, without any training. If I could do that after just weeks of exercise, surely I could run a 5k this year, right?

Well, I did some research about Team Challenge and talked with Anne more about the program. I realized that Team Challenge raises money for Crohn’s and Colitis research. My grandmother battled ulcerative colitis for more than two decades. My godmother has suffered from colitis for as long as I can remember. My uncle has battled both diseases for years.

What’s that saying, “Go big or go home?” Well, I’m going big.

Today I made it official. I’m doing a half-marathon in 160 days. I’m planning to walk it, but if my training goes as I hope it will, I will be running and walking the Wine Country Half Marathon from Napa to Sonoma July 18, 2010.

I will be blogging about my training here at Losing it, as well as documenting all my exercising at DailyMile.

Now, there is a catch with this training program (did I mention Anne will be my COACH?). I have to raise money for Crohn’s and Colitis research. My goal is to raise $3800 by July 1, 2010. If you are so inclined, I would be honored to have you be a sponsor! You can learn more by clicking on this link or the image below.