Weigh In Wednesday: Tuesday edition

I wanted to know what I was in for when I weighed in tomorrow morning. So, tonight when I was changing into my pj’s, I stepped on the scale. Imagine my surprise when I saw something there I haven’t seen in at least a year or two (probably more).

I saw…

249.8

Say what?!?

I’m in the 240’s?! Hallelujah! Let’s take a moment to savor this moment.

I have lost a total of 24.4 pounds since I began this journey way back when (January 6, 2010).

Additionally, I have lost a total of 36.5 inches… from my neck, bust, waist, gut, thighs, hips, arms, knees, calves, you name it. (And yes, because I know you’re sick jerks, if I was a boy I would measure that too).

My goal when I started working out with John (my trainer) was to be in the 240’s by the time of my half marathon in wine country. 19 days early, I’ve hit that goal. Wonder what I can do in the next 3 weeks?

Today also brings an end to my Pound for Pound Challenge. If you signed up way back when, this is what you owe:

Since January, I’ve lost 24.4 lbs. Since March 11 (official start), I’ve lost 14 lbs. I’m doing the half marathon, which is 13.1 miles. Currently, 1 GBP = $1.51 USD.

  • Heck yes £1 for each pound PLUS £1 for each mile — $40.92 USD for loss since March weight, $56.63 for loss since January
  • Heck yes $1 for each pound PLUS $1 for each mile — $27.10 USD for loss since March, $37.50 for loss since January
  • Heck yes £1 for each pound — $21.14 for loss since March, $36.84 for loss since January

I will be sending you all an e-mail tomorrow. Remember, you agreed to make the donation on my fundraising website by this Sunday, July 4. Click here to donate now. And heck, even if you didn’t take the challenge, it’s not too late. Get in on the fun and pick one of those wacky donation amounts above!

I’ve had a lot on my mind lately, including a foot sprain, new responsibilities at work, a troublesome digestive system (TMI) and some other things going on. I’ve had so much on my mind I need to purge, so expect a multitude of blogs in the next week or two.

Weigh in Wednesday: 20lbs!

It’s official.

I’ve lost 20.2 lbs since starting this journey January 6, 2010. Sure, the weight hasn’t come off as quickly as I had hoped, but I’ve kept the weight off, which is a huge accomplishment. I’ve never stuck to a nutrition and exercise plan for this long in my entire life. I’m working out 6 days a week.

I am 20% of the way there to achieving my goal of losing 100 pounds. I hope the next 20 doesn’t take as long as the first, but if it does, I’ll be ok with it. My life has changed for the better.

23 weeks ago, who’d have thought I would be just a month away from completing a half marathon?

And yet, here I am, preparing for my 10-miler on Sunday, and a 12-miler the following week.

Life is good. God is good. I’m so grateful.

Weigh In Wednesday: That’s more like it

Two weeks ago, I started working out with my trainer John. Coincidentally, over the past 2 weeks, I’ve lost 5 pounds. I weighed in at 255.8 this morning. I’ve lost a total of 18.4 pounds since January 6 (26 weeks).

Booyah.

And that my friends, is how Amy got her groove back.

Weigh In Wednesday: Welcome Back

Well, weigh in Wednesday is back. I haven’t decided if it will be back every week, but I will definitely continue to weigh in at least once every four weeks, coinciding with my monthly measurements check.

I am happy to share that in the last 20 weeks, I have lost 13.4 lbs and 27 inches. That inches number continues to amaze me.

Four weeks from tonight, I have my next 5k. My goal is to run the entire 3.1 miles – no walking. I think I can do it, too.

Weight: 260.8 | Neck: 14 | Bust: 45 | Below Bust: 38.25 | R bicep: 14.75 | L bicep: 14.75 | Waist: 41.50 | Hips: 51.5 | R thigh: 27.75 | L thigh: 28| R calf: 18 | L calf: 18.25 | L knee: 16.75 | R knee: 16.75 | total -13.4 lbs | total -27 inches

Struggles

If you’ve been reading my blog, you know I’ve been struggling for the past 6 weeks or so. The number on the scale is not changing. I am becoming obsessed with whatever that number is. And yet, the inches continue to fall off. I’ve now lost 23 inches. That’s 23 inches in 16 weeks – an average of 1.4 inches lost PER WEEK. And while the number on the scale isn’t changing, I’m trying to focus on the number that IS changing.

So, for the next 4 weeks, I’m giving up on the scale. I will not weigh in on Wednesdays. I will not step on the scale. Ok, well I might step on the scale but I’m not going to focus on that being the goal for the week. You know I’ll be honest with y’all about what is going on. But I’m taking a break from the scale for my mental well-being. It’s been too hard to see the number stay the same or go up, despite my increasing workout regiment. I know I’m not making the BEST food choices, but I’m making BETTER food choices.

I’m going to focus on what I can control – what I do with my body and what I put into my body. I’m going to re-examine my routine. I’m going to change things up. I will get through this fork in the road.

Besides, I have that whole pound-for-pound challenge, so I need to kick my butt into gear.

Weigh-in Wednesday will return May 26. Stay tuned.

Remember, you can follow my training on DailyMile!

Will to succeed

One of the things I know I will struggle with for awhile is thinking I’m fatter than I really am. Hell, my li’l description on this blog says “I’m not a skinny girl in a fat girl’s body. I’m a fat girl in a fat girl’s body.”

Today I was reading one of the many health/fitness/weight loss blogs in my RSS reader when I came across this post from For the Love of Skinny:

When I weighed in there was a new woman at the desk, and of course as soon as she saw my achievement of 70lbs she got all excited and said…can you guess…”OH MY GOD YOU MUST FEEL LIKE A DIFFERENT PERSON!” Yeah I get this a LOT. That night though I just smiled and said “you know, not really” which my WW leader over heard and she came over to chat. We started talking about how it takes a while for you brain to catch up with your body. She told me about some study they did with like 100 woman of varying sizes that they put in a room and told them to stand in a long line from biggest to smallest. The women had to silently without help from each other find their spot in the line. In the end only a very small percentage of the women actually understood what size they were, some guessed too small, some to large. The women that were the most off were the ones who had lost a  significant amount of weight, these women were blind to their own size. I feel like that right now.

I can totally relate. When I’ve lost weight before, sure, I’ve been happy and felt better… but there was always a part of me that knew I’d never be completely happy with my outward appearance.

I’ve always tried to be the “I’m-so-happy-I-don’t-care-that-I’m-fat-and-love-to-make-jokes-about-how-fat-I-am” girl… but deep down I’m really the “I-hate-that-I’m-fat-but-don’t-know-where-to-start” kind of girl. Sure, I know what it takes to lose weight. If you don’t know, then, well, did you go to school? I always knew that eating healthy and exercising were the keys to success. You have to do both to be super successful. But it’s that turning point, that determination, that will to change that makes the biggest difference. After a decade of unhealthy choices, I’ve made the decision – no, the commitment- to change. I’m not TRYING to lose weight and get healthy. I AM LOSING WEIGHT AND GETTING HEALTHY.

Trying is attempting with the intent to fail.

Will + Determination = success.

Part of me fears I’ll always think I’m fat. Honestly, a li’l part of me always will, because once that’s in your mind, it’s hard to break. But I’m trying determined to change.

Weigh In Wednesday: Good News and Bad News

First, the good news:

  • I lost 0.6 pounds this week! Considering what I ate this week and that I didn’t work out very much, I am SOOOO happy to have lost and not gained. I would have been happy to stay the same! Current weight: 265 with a total of 9.2 pounds lost in 5 weeks!
  • I signed up to do a half-marathon. Today I decided I want to run as much of it as possible. And no, I am not currently a runner, nor have I EVER been a runner. The most I’ve run since I was 12 was the mile they required us to run in high school gym class for the “fitness” test. And I walked most of that.
  • I have created a tentative training schedule for the next 23 weeks. the first 9 are the Couch to 5k program… followed by a half marathon walking training schedule for the following 14 weeks. Once I begin training with Team Challenge, I am going to adjust the last 16 weeks of this schedule accordingly… especially since I’m going to run as much of it as possible.
  • When you lose weight (and inches), your clothes get big and fall off.

The bad news:

  • When you lose weight (and inches), your clothes get big and fall off.

I’ve lost 0.6 pounds in the last week and lost 9.2 pounds in 5 weeks. Want previous stats? Click here.

Good news… and bad news

Today was, well, interesting. I had a doctor’s appointment for a checkup and got to talk to her about how I’m trying to change my life. She was very proud of what I’ve done in the past two weeks and even asked, “How did you lose that much in 2 weeks?”

My answer?

“I exercised.”

We both laughed and she replied, “Yeah, well that’ll do it. You’re a step above me!”

I have a long history with my doctor. I have been going to Dr. H. since I was 12; I basically grew up with her. She is my mom and sister’s doctor too, so she totally understands my family and always asks about them when I go for an appointment. She knows I’ve struggled with my weight since my very late teens, and knows I’ve tried every diet in the book (even ones she doesn’t approve of). She’s seen my weight creep up and up and up for the past 8-9 years to where I’m at right now. She doesn’t judge. She is very compassionate and knows what a heartache this is for me. Dr. H. knows about my anxiety issues (and prescribes me Xanax as needed). Bottom line – she is amazing. I can honestly say that not wanting to lose her as my primary care physician has been a thought when I’ve considered moving. I just have a really good connection with her and I know that she genuinely cares about me – this isn’t just a job for her.

But I digress.

(oh, there’s a li’l tmi in the next paragraph: you’ve been warned)

So, today Nurse D. took my blood pressure, to see where I’m at since my physical in December (when it was first documented as being high). Today my blood pressure was 149/96. If you don’t know about blood pressure, I can assure you that is not a good number to see. I had never had even the slightest high blood pressure reading before December 2009. This is all so bizarre. In December, Dr. H. mentioned that the first thing to go if my blood pressure stayed high was the birth control pill. (here’s the tmi) Late in December, she told me to stop taking it, which should make my next “time of the month” a blast. I’ve been on the pill for years to help regulate my lady business. Cramps were out of control and I felt like I was losing gallons of blood. (end tmi)

ANYWAYS, so I went off the pill a few weeks ago in the hopes it would lower my blood pressure, but as you can see from my reading today, it was high again. I am supposed to go back to see Dr. H. in a month for another BP check and if it is still high, I will have to start taking medication. High blood pressure medication at the age of 27. Unreal. I held my shiz together til I got to the car and cried my eyes out. I am TOO young for this. I can’t believe I let myself get this fat. I don’t want to die.

Unfortunately for me, even when I do lose the weight, the high blood pressure problem may continue, as there is a long line of family history of blood pressure issues. My mom and my uncle were both on high blood pressure meds in their early 20s and they were both at very healthy weights when they were diagnosed.

So, I’m scared and upset which I’m sure is not doing anything to help my blood pressure (what a catch-22). My doc said we need to get this taken care of or I could have some major problems ahead of me.

So, there you have it… the good news, the bad news and a li’l tmi.

Helping the hungry: Pound for Pound Challenge

You may have noticed this li’l graphic in my sidebar:

I signed up for the Pound for Pound Challenge, committing to lose 35 pounds. I thought this was weight you committed to lose by June but I obviously misread… so I could have pledged more but oh well.

Basically, for every pound you pledge, they will send a pound of food to a Milwaukee food pantry. Right now, Milwaukee is #9. So c’mon and join the party!

Weigh In Wednesday: Happy Dance

Right now I feel like doing this (cue 0:46):

Why? Because I lost 4.6 pounds this week!

EEEEEEEEEEEKKKKK!!!

I have a huge smile on my face today. It’s so wonderful to get validation that my hard work is paying off. I just need to stay focused. If I’m being completely honest, I’d say that what I really wanted to “treat” myself with was a piece of cheesecake from The Cheesecake Factory. No joke.

Instead, I treated myself to a skinny cinnamon dolce latte from Starbucks (just 90 calories!)

I have done the 30 Day Shred 4 times in the past week, and walked for a total of 4.7 miles. Waaaay more activity than I’ve had in the last year (sadly) and I have been very good about watching what I eat.

For example, last night I met up with a bunch of FitMKE peeps at AJBombers for a blogging meeting. I got the Baked Stuffed Mushroom “burger” (sauce on the side) and a small side of onion strings… of which I ate about 10. Talk about self restraint and only eating if you’re hungry. A few weeks ago, I would have cleaned the plate of onion strings. Seriously. And I would have ordered a large.

I think for me to succeed, it’s going to be all about moderation and not depriving myself… which is exactly what I did. 🙂

I’ve lost 4.6 pounds in the last week and 6.8 pounds in 2 weeks. Want previous stats? Click here.