It was the best of times, it was the worst of times

First it was good. Then it was really good. Then it was ok. Then it was meh. Then it was bad. Then it was really bad. Then it was oh-my-god-I’m-going-to-die. Then it was over.

My left foot/ankle bothered me quite a bit yesterday. I’m not sure what happened. I iced it on and off all afternoon and evening, hoping it would feel better.

When I woke up today it was a little bit better, but not great. I did not have high expectations for today’s run/walk. I was completely prepared to do a couple of miles and go home.

Around the first half mile mark, Coach Anne asked if I was going to run down the hill (I like to run down the hill at Lincoln Memorial Drive cuz it makes me feel fast). I told her that I would probably run down the hill and how I felt at the end would determine if I’d run any more today.

Well I started running. And I kept running. Before I knew it, I was by the Northpoint custard stand which is the 2mi mark of the route. And I was running. woah. I walked for the next 3/4 of a mile. Then I started running again. And I kept running. My pace was slowing considerably but I just kept going because I was afraid of what would happen when I stopped. I continued running til I got to Lake Shore State Park and then walked the first half to 3/4 mi of the loop. Then I started running again. I continued running (ok at this point it was more like a shuffle) to Discovery World. Then I realized that the route I thought was 10 miles was actually going to be more like 9 and I got mad and I went up Michigan past Discovery World out onto the pier to add some mileage. It was about half a mile but whatever. It was some additional mileage.

By this point my foot was starting to hurt more, but I kept alternating between walking and running for a bit longer. As I passed the lagoon the pain started getting worse. My pace was slowing. And slowing. And slowing. I ran out of water and bought a bottle from a vendor at the entrance to Veterans Park. I kept going even though the pain was getting worse. I was determined to show the lakefront who’s boss. As I reached McKinley Marina, I knew there was no way I would be running any more. The pain was getting worse. I was glad I had sunglasses on because I’m pretty sure I was crying a bit.

I’ll be honest. There were times during the last couple of miles that all I wanted to do was sit down and cry and call someone to come pick me up. But I didn’t. I kept going, despite the pain.

When I got to the Lake Park Bistro stairs and stared up Lincoln Memorial I knew there was no way I was going to make the last mile of our normal loop. So I cut it short and practically crawled up the stairs. No joke. It was so painful going up those stairs. My knees were aching. My ankle/foot was throbbing. I made it to the top and collapsed near the picnic bench Becky was sitting at. I almost lost it then but managed to keep my shiz together as I talked about what happened.

The rest of the day I was really depressed about what happened today. I focused on the bad so much I forgot that I RAN 1.5 miles today. And then another mile. And then a half mile. And then another mile or so.

I’m going to spend the next couple of days resting my foot and hoping that some RICE action will get it better so I don’t throw off my training. Here’s hoping my workouts at the beginning of the week are more strength-focused than cardio. Cuz the treadmill and eliptical aren’t happening.

SPLITS: 15:51, 15:13, 18:08, 16:17, 18:03, 17:33, 18:10, 19:39

Manic Monday: Training schedule for May 24-30, 2010

  • Monday: Stretch, Strengthen or Active Recovery – TBD. I have acupuncture at 6:30, which is such a welcome addition to my recovery day.
  • Tuesday: 3.5 mile walk – Do my favorite 5k route through Easttown/downtown MKE OR head to Bayview to walk my friends’ dogs.
  • Wednesday: 30 minutes crosstrain – Run to gym, weights for 25-30 minutes, then run home.
  • Thursday: 3.5 mile walk/run – Time goal: Sub-16 pace.
  • Friday: Rest day – aka YES!!! And, it’s Iron Cupcake day. Win-Win.
  • Saturday: 40 min crosstrain – Yoga, pilates, biking or weights (TBD).
  • Sunday: 8 miles fast walk – Team Challenge practice day. Hold me.

I am going to try some speedwork this week, per Coach Anne’s suggestion. She thinks it will give my body the extra kick to start LOSING again:

  • How about six minutes brisk, one-minute normal pace, six minutes brisk, one-minute normal pace, six minutes brisk.
  • Hills are also an excellent way to start speedwork. Find a steep hill, work your way up, come back down and do it again six times. Gradually add extra reps until you can complete 10.
  • Try just a 25-minute run or walk with FAST bursts of speed. Look for the next light post or mailbox or city block and move as fast as you can to it. If you are wiped out when you get there you’re doing it right! Take a moment to recover and go all-out again!

If you have any suggestions, please don’t hesitate to let me know!

Manic Monday: Training schedule for May 17-23, 2010

This marks the start of a new series of posts at Losing It. Every Monday, I will post my training schedule, along with my plan for how to fulfill the plan. I’m hoping you will help hold me accountable to my plan (by following my Dailymile training). I’m also hoping that putting my schedule out there will help me not wig out err modify my schedule.

So, here goes.

  • Monday: Stretch, Strengthen or Active Recovery – 100 crunches, 20 min of yoga and/or work with resistance bands at home. OFF – ILL
  • Tuesday: 3.5 mile walk – Do my favorite 5k route through Easttown/downtown MKE OR head to Bayview for a li’l jaunt near my acupuncturist’s office. I have an appointment at 6:15. Time goal: 45-50min (average 15-16min pace). Probably going with the Bayview Route. Running last week right before my appt was awesome. Made the relaxation so much more enjoyable. I do plan to allot more time for stretching though.
  • Wednesday: 30 minutes crosstrain – 6-7 mile bike ride. Time goal: 40 min.
  • Thursday: 2 mile walk/run – I will likely stay close to home for this, and hope to really push myself. Time goal: 33 min (average 14-16 min pace). Honestly, I’d like to see this 2-miler be sub 30 min.
  • Friday: Rest day – aka YES!!! I am working a little different shift on Friday, so I am going to try to get in either a short walk or some yoga before work. Then, it’s Bowlin’ for the Colon Friday night.
  • Saturday: 40 min crosstrain – BOOTCAMP WITH A PURPOSE – 30 min bootcamp led by fitness coach Jeremy Belter. Hope you can join me! Details here.
  • Sunday: 70 min fast walk – Team Challenge practice day. I have a feeling Coach Anne will change this to 6-8 miles fast walk, which will put me in the 1:40-2:30 range.

If you have any suggestions, please don’t hesitate to let me know!

UPDATE: I wrote this post last week and didn’t anticipate feeling under the weather today. So, I’m changing my plan a bit to accommodate. Changes are in red.

Help me plan my workouts this week

I need some suggestions on getting the the rest of my training in this week.

Schedule:

  • Mon – active recovery (1mi easy walk, DONE)
  • Tues -3mi walk
  • Wed – 30 min crosstrain
  • Thurs – 3 mi run/walk
  • Fri – rest
  • Sat – 30 min cross train
  • Sun – 70 min fast walk (which I know is really going to be 6mi, so more like 90-100 min fast walk).

Problem(s):

  • Sunday’s walk/run won’t be happening because I’ll be in Rockford cheering friends at the half/full marathon. I’m gonna count Sunday as a cross training day, as I’ll be walking all over to cheer my friends at different points of the race. So, do I swap Saturday/Sunday training?
  • I have a group workout planned for Friday, which will be approx. 4.3 miles of walking. Not sure of the pace just yet.
  • Ideally, I need to get approx 12-15 miles of walk/run in, with at least 1 long workout of 6 mi. I’d also like to get at least one 8mi bike ride in this week for crosstraining. And, I’d like to avoid the treadmill/stationary bike if possible.
  • Today is TUESDAY CRUNCH, which means for each $ donated here, I’ll do a crunch. That could potentially be my crosstraining, depending on today’s donations.

So, how should I rearrange my workouts this week to accommodate my schedule? Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated!

And so it begins…

I’ve never been one to make New Year’s resolutions… to me, it’s a bit cliche. Besides, if you want to make a change in your life, why should a day on the calendar dictate when you start? When you’re ready to make the change, make it. JUST DO IT. Waiting “one more day” or “starting Monday” just gives you a crutch to hold on to — holding on to the old habits you’re trying to stop.

And yet, here I am, writing a blog post on New Year’s Day. I disgust myself.

I actually started making some changes a couple of weeks ago, but those were more for health reasons than anything else.

And my health is why I’m doing this.

I’m making a life change, and I need you all to hold me accountable, mmmkay?

Here’s a back story on the health issues I’m dealing with:

Over the past few months, my lack of energy and continual tiredness was attributed to my new work schedule – 5am to 2pm weekdays. Even though I was getting plenty of sleep, I never felt 100%. I could take a 4 hour nap after work, wake up to eat supper and then go back to bed and I was still always tired. Then, the coldness kicked in. I was always cold at work, home and everywhere else. It became the norm for me to keep my scarf, hat and coat on at work… and this was soon joined by a blanket on my lap. My skin always felt warm to the touch to others and I never had a fever. I took my temperature multiple times a day because I was convinced I had some type of infection. Why else would I be so cold so much of the time?

Conversations with family and my Twitter friends led me to wonder if something bigger was going on. Luckily, I already had my yearly physical scheduled for the following week, so I just toughed it out until that appointment.

My doctor confirmed what friends hypothesized – I probably have a thyroid problem. Numerous blood tests later, I found out that not only did I have hypothyroidism (with a TSH count of 10.2, normal is 0.4-5.0), I was also very anemic.

No WONDER I felt like death. Seriously, if I had to guess what death felt like, it would have been how I’ve felt for the last month or so.

Looking back, the symptoms started this summer… but I attributed them all to my work schedule and a changing routine. My symptoms didn’t come on suddenly – I was just ignoring them.

My doctor also suggested I get tested for sleep apnea. Sleep apnea is when you stop breathing when you sleep. Yeah, super scary. My uncle has it and I’ve heard it can run in families. Awesomesauce. Sleep apnea can also be caused by being overweight, which I am. My doctor and I decided to wait to do that testing until I have the thyroid and anemia issues under control. Baby steps.

I also had high blood pressure for the first time ever. I am about the age that my mom and her brothers all went on high blood pressure meds, so I’ve always been closely monitored. My doc thinks it could have been a result of another medication I was on, so she ended up taking me off it. Hopefully that plus weight loss will do the trick.

Can you say scary? All these problems coming at me at once?

Obviously, I need to change my life.

I’m not a skinny girl in a fat girl’s body. I’m a fat girl in a fat girl’s body. I will always be a fat girl, no matter what my outward appearance looks like. I’m an emotional eater. I eat when I’m stressed, depressed, happy. I love rich, tasty food, forget about the calories. Sometimes, it just doesn’t matter.

But now, it does.

I am committing to living a healthier life. I am committing to document my journey by writing this blog. I am committing to losing it without losing me.

I want to lose the bulky weight, the plus-size clothes, the getting-short-of-breath-when-I-walk-up-a-flight-of-stairs. I want to lose it all…. but not lose who I am in the process.

This is where you come in.

Hold me accountable.

Don’t let me lose who I am.

Encourage me when I fail.

Praise me when I triumph.

I’m not planning on making any crazy goals, like “lose 50 pounds by summer.” But, if that does happen, I won’t be upset. I just want to get to a healthy weight, no matter how long it takes me to get there.  I will be outlining my goals in a future post.

So that’s it. I’m committing to losing it without losing me, will you commit to holding me accountable?