Not much to report on the weigh-in this week. I was -0.2, which is really nothing at all. I’m ok with it. I’m surprised that I’m so ok with it. Usually, I would be upset about something like this, but I know that I had a big loss last week and I didn’t work out as much this week, so it makes sense. I also had some food splurges (though not as bad as it could have been) so I’m really happy that I basically stayed the same this week. It is just pushing me to work harder this next week. I can do it. I will do it.
My knee isn’t bothering me as much anymore, but I’m also trying to modify my exercises to accommodate it. I’m not doing the higher impact circuits on the 30 day shred, and am focusing on ones that will still get my heart rate up, but won’t irritate the ol’ knee.
This is the knee I had surgery on almost 9 years ago. It’s always been a little beyotch. Right now it’s really more of a dull ache or feels stiff. Totally manageable. I’m going to look for some knee strengthening exercises and some other workout dvds that will be easier on my knee… though I will still do the shred. I love it. I feel good when I do it. I haven’t felt good about myself in a long time, but I feel good about myself when I do this workout. I can feel the changes in my body… even if the scale didn’t show it this week, I know I’m making progress. Next week I will be taking measurements again, so we’ll see what kind of changes I have there. Can’t wait!
Now, on to my health… which is becoming a huge part of this blog, and for good reason. It is my poor health that was a kick in the pants for me to change my life.
Had an appointment with my neurologist (Dr. V) today because of my increased headaches lately. The appointment was… interesting. He asked if I had been stressed lately and I started laughing. “Yes doc, I’ve been crazy stressed lately.” He asked what was stressing me and I explained about a situation I’ve been dealing with for the past few weeks that has really stressed me out… plus, I was just told last month that I’m anemic, have hypothyroidism and they need to monitor my blood pressure. What’s NOT stressful about that? Since my headaches started getting worse in November, the month before I was diagnosed with anemia and hypothyroidism, he thought those might have been aggravating my headaches. My headaches are caused my a chemical imbalance in my brain – low levels of serotonin… so my low thyroid levels could be contributing to the problem.
Dr. V asked about my sleeping habits and then asked how tall I was… and then proceeded to calculate my BMI… by hand. We’re talking long division folks… He didn’t have a fancy program to calculate it (I knew it was about 40.5 right now), and seriously, there is nothing more horrifying than seeing someone calculate your BMI by hand. I almost threw up to see him crunching those numbers. Then he said, well you’re morbidly obese. Punch. In. The. Gut. I mean, I knew I was fat, I knew I was obese… but MORBIDLY OBESE??? I’d be lying if I told you I didn’t cry when I got to my car. How many times this month am I going to cry in the clinic parking lot? He wanted to figure out my BMI because of how I’ve been sleeping, always being tired, etc… he also thinks I should get tested for sleep apnea. So, two docs in one month tell me I should get tested. I guess I can’t put it off any longer. I will have to find the money for it somewhere.
Dr. V is sending me to physical therapy for my neck. He thinks the tightness in my neck might also be contributing to my headaches. So, again, more medical bills. I am really upset about all of this. I have already spent a small fortune in the past 2 months on medical bills, and it’s just going to get worse. I am not handling this all well. I’m scared. I’m worried. I’m stressed. My mom talked me off the ledge cheered me up a bit today by reminding me that I am taking control of the situation. I am eating healthier. I am exercising. I am committed to getting healthy. Where’s my genie y’all? Fairygodmother? Bueller? I know change can’t happen over night, but it sure would be nice, wouldn’t it?
I wasn’t afraid to see what the doctor’s scale said about my weight, cuz I knew already. 🙂
My blood pressure was 126/82. WTH. Just last week it was 149/96. I don’t know what’s going on, but I was encouraged to see a good reading.
I’ve lost .2 pounds in the last week and lost 7 pounds in 3 weeks. Want previous stats? Click here.
I have a huge smile on my face today. It’s so wonderful to get validation that my hard work is paying off. I just need to stay focused. If I’m being completely honest, I’d say that what I really wanted to “treat” myself with was a piece of cheesecake from The Cheesecake Factory. No joke.
Instead, I treated myself to a skinny cinnamon dolce latte from Starbucks (just 90 calories!)
I have done the 30 Day Shred 4 times in the past week, and walked for a total of 4.7 miles. Waaaay more activity than I’ve had in the last year (sadly) and I have been very good about watching what I eat.
For example, last night I met up with a bunch of FitMKE peeps at AJBombers for a blogging meeting. I got the Baked Stuffed Mushroom “burger” (sauce on the side) and a small side of onion strings… of which I ate about 10. Talk about self restraint and only eating if you’re hungry. A few weeks ago, I would have cleaned the plate of onion strings. Seriously. And I would have ordered a large.
I think for me to succeed, it’s going to be all about moderation and not depriving myself… which is exactly what I did. 🙂
I’ve lost 4.6 pounds in the last week and 6.8 pounds in 2 weeks. Want previous stats? Click here.
So before I do a li’l celebration dance, I have a few more things to share.
First, I bought Jillian Michaels’ 30 day shred DVD today at Target (bonus $2 off coupon = $8 investment, not too shabby). I did level 1 today. It’s about a 20 minute or so workout… and boy am I feeling it. But I know I done good… so I’m happy about that. Hopefully I won’t have to stay at the level 1 “easy” stage for long.
Second, I found an awesome app for my Droid that will help me keep track of weight loss, calories, etc… AND it has this cool barcode scanner feature… which will look up your food item in its database. I’ll have to do a video blog about it someday, but until then, check out Calorie Counter from Fatsecret.com.
Third, we have food porn.
I sauteed a chicken cutlet from Whole Foods in some Wildtree Grapeseed Oil and Garlic & Herb Blend… along with a shredded zucchini. Then I added some cherry tomatoes and some fresh mozzarella. ZOMG. Soooo good.
Tonight was the #fitmke Weight Loss Challenge kickoff and official weigh-in. And BOY did I weigh in. LIKE WEEEEEIIIIIIGHHH in. Before I post the numbers, I would like to mention the following:
He made me keep my big winter boots on
I was a bit dehydrated (apparently, if you’re not well hydrated, it throws off the body fat % number…)
It was a PM weigh-in and you typically weigh more in the evening (or so I’ve been told)
I have a thyroid condition that has definitely contributed to a massive weight gain over the past year.
That said…. I weighed in at 274.2. Holy !@#($!#$%@$!#*(&! I wanted to cry, but I stayed strong. THEN, I was dragged kicking and screaming had the privilege of getting my body fat percentage taken. It was 45. I am almost HALF FAT. !@#($!@(#$$%&^%^&*%@#$!@#$. But, please keep #3 in mind.
The trainer didn’t take measurements, so I did that when I got home. My sister helped me cuz I could not measure my arms for the life of me.
I’m going to keep track of everything on the Stats page… so if you want to see the damage, click on over. WARNING: content may not be appropriate for the young or faint of heart.
What has this taught me?
I am in need of some SERIOUS changes in my life. Y’all need to keep pushing me, because all I want to do right now is to drown my sorrows in large amounts of alcohol, ice cream and deep fried goodness.
Did I ever mention I’m an emotional eater? Cuz yeah, I am.
I seriously SERIOUSLY want to give up. But I know y’all have my back (all 274.2 pounds of it) and instead, I’m going to steam some veggies. It’s time to say a big ol’ EFFFFF U to the fat.
I am a visual person. I need to see a visual representation of my progress and, well, one of those tickers just won’t do the trick. I’ll still have some type of “scientific” ticker/chart/etc posted here, but I wanted something more pretty for my home.
So, I created an Inspiration Board. It’s a 12×12 inch piece of cardboard I decorated with papers, ribbon, chipboard (and packaging) from Cosmo Cricket‘s Earth Love line, some vintage ribbon and ric rac, some Thickers alphabet stickers, glitter, Pink Paislee brads and some other goodies.
My plan is to add a sparkly gem for every pound I lose and I have li’l chipboard lovlies to represent various milestones (5 lbs, 10lbs, 5%, 10%, etc). And yes, if you see in the images below the li’l butterfly with the “100 lbs – goal” and thought “oh, Amy doesn’t need to lose 100 pounds” well, for 1) I love you. Marry me? and 2) get with the program. I weigh 264 pounds. At least that’s what I did at the beginning of December. If I weigh less than 264 (oh gosh that is painful to type) at the Fit Milwaukee Challenge weigh-in Wednesday, I will give reward myself on the board accordingly. If I weigh more than 264 (oh please God no) then I will readjust my goal weight to whatever 100 less than that number is. Of course when I hit my goal weight, I may change it to a different number, but I’m 5’8″ with broad shoulders and I don’t think much less than 165 would be good for me.
If you’re viewing this blog in a reader, you’ll probably have to click through to the site to see the gallery below.
I am totally freaking out about it, even though I obviously need to know where I stand… (which is ginormous, so bleh). It needs to be done. I had a physical in December (where I found out about my current health problems) so I know about where I stand weight-wise… just not with the measurements. Luckily, my weight was about 10 lbs or so lower than my highest weight ever (a number I hope I NEVER EVER see again… unless it’s from a slot machine).
I haven’t decided if I want to post the numbers here or not. I’m leading towards yes, as mortifying as that will be. It’s all about accountability.
As for health goals… I plan to give myself little goals along the weigh way along with rewards such as new clothes, a new book, new workout attire and the occasional splurge. Let’s be honest. When you lose weight, you want to reward yourself with a 1500 calorie piece of cheesecake. Am I right people? Be honest and I know you’ll agree. Unless you’re one of those skinny beyotches. And in that case, you can stick it.