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It was in the second half of a horrible half marathon last month that I began to wonder if something was wrong.
Horrible pain in the center of my left ankle, shooting up my leg.
And now, more mental anguish.
Today one of my fears became reality.
- I won’t be running the Lakefront Marathon.
- I won’t be running the Madison Mini Marathon.
- I won’t be running the Brewers Mini Marathon.
This was supposed to be my year. No injuries. Smart training. Life goals accomplished. Complete a marathon before I turn 30 in November. Run four half marathons plus Ragnar as training runs for the marathon.
First, I slipped on the ice and threw out my back. Then I nursed a strained quad muscle. And just as that injury was healed, my ankle decided to be a little bitch.
The day after the Chicago Rock N Roll Half Marathon, I went to see my doctor. I wasn’t having the normal post race pain. I was afraid it was serious. Perhaps a stress fracture. X-rays showed inflammation and the start of arthritis. Lovely, but something I could deal with. Doctor’s orders were to rest (i.e. NO RUNNING for two weeks), ice, brace, etc. As much as it killed me, I obliged.
I’ve been going stir crazy. Besides a few short walks with my dog I haven’t done ANYTHING since that race. Two weeks later, the pain is still there. Nothing had changed. Dr. H. referred me to an orthopedic specialist this week. I saw Dr. B. late this afternoon. After an exam and closer look at my x-rays from two weeks ago, Dr. B. concluded that inflammation, tendonitis and a tiny bone spur were to blame for the pain. Besides the tendonitis on the front of my ankle, the inflammation and bone spur are in the middle of my ankle. Like the exact middle/inside of my ankle. That’s why it doesn’t matter how I move or walk on it, it hurts. He also explained that repeated pressure (i.e. running) and inclines would continue to aggravate my ankle.
Dr. B. said the good news is, it isn’t serious. The bad news is, the recovery will take months.
- Absolutely no running.
- No walking, beyond normal, daily stuff until the pain is gone. Then, only short walks with short strides on flat surfaces, working up to walking longer distances on flat surfaces.
- Ice daily.
- Major anti-inflammatory meds for the next 3-4 weeks (or longer).
- Continue to wear a brace daily.
- Wear athletic shoes for the next 3 weeks (which means I’ll be rocking the dresses and running shoes look at work).
- Stretching 3-4 times a day.
Yeah. It fucking sucks.
Dr. B. told me I could bike, as long as I use the heel of my left foot on the pedal.
I’m so lost right now. I’m heartbroken.
I’m going to have a pity party for a few days, including eating all the feelings. Yes. Even yours.
Then, I’m going to force myself to live with the cards I’ve been dealt. I’ll bike. I’ll swim. I’ll do upper body strength training.
But first, fuck you ankle.