Good news… and bad news

Today was, well, interesting. I had a doctor’s appointment for a checkup and got to talk to her about how I’m trying to change my life. She was very proud of what I’ve done in the past two weeks and even asked, “How did you lose that much in 2 weeks?”

My answer?

“I exercised.”

We both laughed and she replied, “Yeah, well that’ll do it. You’re a step above me!”

I have a long history with my doctor. I have been going to Dr. H. since I was 12; I basically grew up with her. She is my mom and sister’s doctor too, so she totally understands my family and always asks about them when I go for an appointment. She knows I’ve struggled with my weight since my very late teens, and knows I’ve tried every diet in the book (even ones she doesn’t approve of). She’s seen my weight creep up and up and up for the past 8-9 years to where I’m at right now. She doesn’t judge. She is very compassionate and knows what a heartache this is for me. Dr. H. knows about my anxiety issues (and prescribes me Xanax as needed). Bottom line – she is amazing. I can honestly say that not wanting to lose her as my primary care physician has been a thought when I’ve considered moving. I just have a really good connection with her and I know that she genuinely cares about me – this isn’t just a job for her.

But I digress.

(oh, there’s a li’l tmi in the next paragraph: you’ve been warned)

So, today Nurse D. took my blood pressure, to see where I’m at since my physical in December (when it was first documented as being high). Today my blood pressure was 149/96. If you don’t know about blood pressure, I can assure you that is not a good number to see. I had never had even the slightest high blood pressure reading before December 2009. This is all so bizarre. In December, Dr. H. mentioned that the first thing to go if my blood pressure stayed high was the birth control pill. (here’s the tmi) Late in December, she told me to stop taking it, which should make my next “time of the month” a blast. I’ve been on the pill for years to help regulate my lady business. Cramps were out of control and I felt like I was losing gallons of blood. (end tmi)

ANYWAYS, so I went off the pill a few weeks ago in the hopes it would lower my blood pressure, but as you can see from my reading today, it was high again. I am supposed to go back to see Dr. H. in a month for another BP check and if it is still high, I will have to start taking medication. High blood pressure medication at the age of 27. Unreal. I held my shiz together til I got to the car and cried my eyes out. I am TOO young for this. I can’t believe I let myself get this fat. I don’t want to die.

Unfortunately for me, even when I do lose the weight, the high blood pressure problem may continue, as there is a long line of family history of blood pressure issues. My mom and my uncle were both on high blood pressure meds in their early 20s and they were both at very healthy weights when they were diagnosed.

So, I’m scared and upset which I’m sure is not doing anything to help my blood pressure (what a catch-22). My doc said we need to get this taken care of or I could have some major problems ahead of me.

So, there you have it… the good news, the bad news and a li’l tmi.

0 Replies to “Good news… and bad news”

  1. Perfect, Amdanda.

    Less than three, Amy. One foot in front of the other. You’re sometime surprised how many problems resolve themselves once we’re doing what we’re supposed to be doing for ourselves. At least it’s often been that way for me.

    Also, congrats on your many successes these last couple of weeks. It’s inspirational. It’s motivational. And it makes me a little jealous sometimes! 🙂

  2. I’m impressed with your openness, Amy. You’re very brave to share all this with the world.

    Once again, I have to encourage you to read the book “Protein Power” that I recommended earlier. You might be surprised what simply changing your diet can do for your blood pressure and all of the other problems that go with it. The author, Dr. Michael Eades, “cures” people of high blood pressure with diet and no medication. In fact, he sends them back to their primary care physician letting them know that they are going to have to monitor their patient’s blood pressure, cholesterol, etc. because the patient is going to have to go off it in a matter of weeks.

    If you want a quick course that might convince you to make the switch, read his recent blog post about what he learned from his first four patients here: http://www.proteinpower.com/drmike/cardiovascular-disease/four-patients-who-changed-my-life/

    Don’t let the diet demons win!

    1. the patient is going to have to go off it (^blood pressure meds) in a matter of weeks

      My bad. It’s late and my brain isn’t workin’ so good. 😉

  3. Amy I’m sorry you’re upset. But think…as you lose more and more your BP will go down.
    But if you have a history of high BP, it may be something you just always need to watch. You could be 100 lbs and still have high BP…sometimes its just a family issue we have to deal with.
    You’re doing great. Keep up the good work.

  4. Amy, I can see why you are upset but you have to know that you are already taking all the right steps. Imagine if you hadn’t changed your habits before you went to the doctor today! You’re already on the right track and things ARE going to get better for you. I bet you anything you won’t be on this medication forever. 🙂

  5. Keep doing what you are doing and it will come down in the end. If it doesn’t then it’s something that is not within your control. Do not beat yourself up about this. I have had up and down BP for a couple years so I hoping that the new found determination will drive it down. You are doing awesome!

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